Today I am thankful for herpes. Not to get ahead of myself, there are many days in which I loath this virus.
Food for thought. I’m sitting here today feeling sorry about myself. Newly single, (from my giver) alone, i’ve gained weight, just not feeling very sexy or wanted by anyone.
Well.. There are a lot of other things that could be far worse in my case. There are thousands of people out there who were dealt a harder hand than I was. There are those who embrace there handicaps with far more grace than I have toward herpes. And it’s just plain sad. I feel almost like a joke when I think my life or dating life is over. Because it’s just not. I just havent made it to the next step yet. I havent had the “talk” with anyone yet and I haven’t felt the blow of rejection from a man either.
If I and you, all of us, sit back and sulk over this virus day in and day out, life is not going to wait. It’ll pass us up and keep going. And I certainly do not want to be denied of anything else.
I’ll be honest I struggle, a lot. But I also progress everyday. I think we all do. It’s in each and every one of us. We just have to believe in finding true love and happiness, but most importantly, acceptance.
I’m going to share something here I read a while back. It’s about finding gratitude in the everyday things we gripe about. It rings true of positive perspectives.
“I am thankful for:
The taxes that I pay, because it means that I am employed.
The clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat.
My shadow who watches me work because it means that I am out in the sunshine.
A lawn that has to be mowed, windows that have to be washed, and gutters that need fixing, because it means that I have a home.
The spot that I find at the far end of the parking lot because it means that I am capable of walking.
All of the complaining I hear about our government because it means we have freedom of speech.
The lady behind me in church who sings off key because it means that I can hear.
The huge pile of laundry and ironing because it means my loved ones are nearby.
The alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am alive.”
I would like to continue with:
I am thankful for herpes
because it means that I know humility.
because each day I get to rediscover acceptance, which in turn can be extremely freeing.
because I know when I find someone who loves me, it will be for ALL of me.
In the words of C.S Lewis, “Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny”.